I am loving this summer weather- but mostly I'm enjoying the fact that I do not have to think about anything school related for at least another 2 months! The pool has officially opened at our apartment complex so I've been outside trying to catch some rays. I am officially done with my first semester as a nursing student, and I am happy to say that I passed all my classes! There were times when I wasn't sure I would be able to make it, but God was so good, and so was Joshua- always encouraging and pushing me to study and do my best.
Joshua has been staying busy while I've been busy planning the wedding. He has set up a dark room in our apartment and loves printing his photos. He is a very talented fella and enjoys doing this kind of work. I think it's going to take a while before I get used to the smell of his printing chemicals :)
Since school has been out, I've really been able to kick the wedding planning into high gear. The bridesmaid's outfits are halfway completed. It has been a struggle to find something that fits both of my bridesmaids since they have COMPLETELY different body types....but we're figuring it all out :) I have made a list of all the things I need to get accomplished and I feel like it's a mile long, but slowly but surely things are getting marked off- which always makes me feel good. I am having multiple colors in my wedding. They are all springy colors such as: coral, turquoise, yellow, orange, etc. I thought that having multiple colors would make everything easier since it would give us more options, but instead, I think it's making everything harder because there are SO many options! I am a very one aspect- detail oriented person, so when it comes to seeing the big picture, such as the wedding, my mind goes a little bit hazy. This makes me a tad nervous since I'm scared that the wedding won't come together or match at all. All I have to do is trust that everything will turn out!
God has really been teaching me a lot through this whole wedding planning process. This experience is so much more emotional for girls since we're the ones who grew up dreaming about getting married. I thought I knew what I wanted in my wedding- until the process actually got started- and now everything has changed. I have compromised or changed on almost every single aspect of my wedding. I was starting to get super irritated and of course Josh just didn't understand what I was going through. But God understood and He moved me in a very real way. God showed me that the wedding isn't everything. It's just one day, and things are going to go wrong. I just have to accept that. It has been a very humbling experience and when I get wrapped up in wedding planning, I just have to take a step back and ask myself what is really important and then reevaluate my priorities. It's a struggle but I know that God is shining a spotlight on an area of my life that needs to be purified. Everyone always says that your wedding is the happiest day of your life- well I hope that mine isn't. I would like MANY more happy days to come AFTER the wedding is over. Life doesn't end after the wedding is done- it's just beginning!
